December 31, 2006

Write a Story

A while ago I saw this movie, Whisper of the Heart, it's a story about a young girl, Shizuku, who is following her heart despite pressures around her to do what she is supposed to do, not what she wants to do--write. (Below is a clip of the movie, feel free to watch the whole movie at youtube.com the version uploaded is in Japanese. yay! :D)

I watched this movie a few months ago and its still stuck in my head, I was so inspired by her to write a story of my own. I love writing too. The only thing that is stopping me is that I don't know what to write about. I wrote a fan fiction story a long time ago about a neopet (lame, I know..) which wasn't that good, but I had a great time writing it. I've been itching to write something since I got tired of the first neopet story, but can't find a topic. I suppose I have writers block, but then I have probably had it since 8th grade, when I stopped writing the neopet story.

I want to write something, I don't care if its non-fiction, science fiction, a biography, doesn't matter, it just has to tell a story.

December 26, 2006

long day

Today I went with Yumi to the Sun Valley Mall in Concord. We went to Aéropostale, American Eagle, the Vans Store, H&M, Hot Topic, the Gap, and In 'n' Out. Then we went to her house, watched High School Musical, and watched the Suite Life with Zach & Cody. Busy day, up at 6:55AM, and got home at 5:45PM.

While in Aéropostale and American Eagle, Yumi was shopping for clothing and I was just roaming the store looking at clothes people consider to be fashionable these days. Some of it was cute, but some of it wasn't. Mostly I just felt out of place in there, these were stores that fashionable people went to. I don't consider myself a fashionable person, nor do I try to be one. I like my style, and I don't like the clothes that these stores sold.

At the Vans store I was a little sad when I couldn't find an Emory. The Emory a model of their skate shoe. (Shown at left) This show is my favorite Vans shoe, it is discontinued, unfortunately. I saw it once, at Mervyn's, with Zach. It was a size 9 1/2, just my size. *tear* I took a picture with it, not realizing I'd never see it again... :[

Anyway, moving on, I bought a white, canvas belt and black/gray/cream gloves at H&M. I originally wanted to buy a scarf there, but they didn't have any on the floor, that I could tell. There were a few cute shirts that I was considering buying, but I didn't want to use my lunch money.

At the Gap I bought a pair of boxers, they were on sale for $6! I was excited about that. I <3 boxers, especially comfortable ones! These are 100% soft cotton, gray plaid AND have the tag along the spandex!! (celebrates at purchase victory) They are so comfortable! Plus, they had just one in my size left.

After we ate our burgers at In 'n' Out, we spent about two hours discussing the work we had to do for Kotekitai. We forgot to bring writing utensils so we resorted to storing our notes in txts on our phones, xD we're so resourceful!

She showed me around her town, Albany, climbed Indian Rock, which is this huge rock where you can see the whole Bay Area. It was such a nice view. She pointed out the different cities and landmarks that were visible and I pointed her where I lived, turns out we live really close to each other. We went to her house and watched High School Musical, the actor who plays Troy is hot. This movie is becoming my guilty pleasure. After that was done, we watched a few episodes of the Suite Life with Zack and Cody. It took her brother, Akira, 30 minutes to figure out that Zack & Cody were brothers. Hes a hoot and a half, that one.

Caught the BART home in the pouring rain, and promptly signed back onto my computer. That was my day, I hope you found it mildly interesting.

December 18, 2006

Pet Peeves

*squeak* OMG! What was that?? *looks around nervously* Oh, good, it was just my wet shoe rubbing against the floor... NO! EVIL SQUEAKAGE! I have nothing to write about today, instead of writing about something that happened today, I listed some of my pet peeves...

  1. My wet shoes squelching and squeaking when I walk to my locker on rainy mornings.
  2. Storing food in containers that aren't air tight nor plastic ziploc bags.
  3. Having a cluttered backpack.
  4. Storing things out of size order, smallest to largest, in my biggest backpack pocket.
  5. Writing notes in blue ink.
  6. Writing notes messily.
  7. Getting sticky food on my nose while eating.
  8. Earwax in my ears.
  9. Earwax on my inner ear headphones.
  10. Using smilies like :) and :-).
  11. When people refuse to let me get my word in during conversations.
  12. Not having okurigana on kanji I don't know.
  13. Forgetting what I was going to blog about when I get home.
  14. The fact that I can never figure out how to use the phrase "wot wot" right. [note: that doesn't say woot woot]
  15. When the Firefox spell check plug-in doesn't work on javascript text areas.
  16. When people bite their thumbs at people.
  17. When I hear the MSN Messenger IM Receive noise repeatedly at a rapid rate for long periods of time.
  18. When I start something online, and don't finish it by sign off time.
  19. When people call and I'm too tired to talk but I talk anyway.
  20. Hearing my phone vibrate.
  21. Hearing any high pitched ringing that resembles my alarm.
  22. Not remembering something very important that an important person told me.
  23. Hearing the low buzz of my computer rather than its hum.
  24. Getting annoyed at people.
  25. When my mood gets changed dramatically by something I read, see, or hear.
  26. When I get emo.
  27. When people go "away" in the IM for long periods of time and forget to "return" in the IM.
  28. When I can't go to something that a bunch of people I know will go to.
  29. When I'm expecting a call and it never comes.
  30. When many programs are visible in my "notification area" on the task bar.

December 16, 2006

Bones' Fancy New Fur

Bones' old food, Purina Cat Chow Adult Formula, wasn't agreeing with her. She'd throw it up every time she ate it, Mom didn't appreciate cleaning up that much mess.

One day, Dad brought her a new kind of cat food, Nutro Complete Care Cat Food Adult Formula. A 2lb. bag of this stuff is $12.00! Her previous food, Purina, was $12.00 for 12lbs.! Its insane that we have to pay the same amount for 1/6 of the chow!

After a few months of this new food, she stopped throwing up, she slimed down, built up her muscles a little, and her coat is glossier! It's so much fun to pet her now, because she has soft fur and it's pretty! ^___^

With the old food, she was suffering but the family budget was happy. Now shes happy but the family budget is suffering... I'd rather have a happy cat than a larger bank account.

December 15, 2006

Newspaper Article

This quarter's school newspaper, Jet Blast, was released today. It had six pages of articles and artwork. The artwork was all holiday themed! Julian submitted one, it was very pretty. She said she made it on the computer, as in used the mouse as a pencil and drew every last line with the mouse. [that's crazy hard...] Julian's added some blends that made it look all the more better, ^___^ she's good at presentation.

The articles, Ian wrote an article about the problem of homophobia in our school, which is a little difficult to believe that a school as diverse as ours has a problem like that. He made some valid points but I couldn't focus on his argument because there were many structural problems. :/ He's only a junior, so I can't blame him. All the underclassmen articles I read had quite a few grammatical errors, not that my own grammar skills are perfect. The editor has to proof read all the articles and make sure that articles have as few errors as possible, and the teacher in charge of it should do it too, to check. But Mr. Smith, an arithmetic teacher, is the teacher for the newspaper, :/ we find a lot of errors on our statistics homework sheets...

Leland, the editor-in-chief called for students to write articles, so I've decided to write something, probably multiple things--anime review, anime movie review, and a non-anime article. I was thinking about writing my non-anime article about blogging, but what would be the purpose of it? Just talking about blogging? To me, that seems pretty redundant. :/

Maybe I'll write my anime review about Ouran High School Host Club. It's a very interesting anime, I'm sure it'll be entertaining. I've been wanting to write a review for that anime, ^__^ it's one of my favorite anime! :D I hope it comes out nicely and people will be introduced to something new and it'll open up possibilities in their lives.

Playing on Sirius' Alt Nation | 21: Switchfoot - Oh! Gravity
aren't they a religious group? :/

December 14, 2006

blogger makeover

I redid my blog, as you can see. It's no longer "depths of ichuu" which means the depths of the mind. nope, it's "angou no waltz" the coded waltz! It's an ASIAN KUNG-FU GENERATION song. Also, I redid the color scheme, changed the layout, and the way things are presented, i.e. dates, times, etc.

I have 2minutes before my Anime Club officers show up for our meeting to discuss things. I'll make this really super brief. I am looking for a new name. Right now, I go by Midori. Even though I don't like the name... >___< I kind of want to go back to Kimiko. It's cute, Midori isn't. [sorry Midori-chan :/]

James, James and Julian'll both be here in a few seconds... >_< there they ARE!!! OH NOES! Need to start reviewing the agenda, I'll post more later.... [doubt that though..]


playing on iPod: dark blue - jack's mannekin

July 04, 2006

hypertention

being the offspring of a diabetic, it isn't unheard of that i show symptoms similar to those of diabetes, but not actually have the disease...

today, dad had really hypertention. which means he's just really irritable, but not due to an outside of his body source, no, he's irritable because his body has some kind of chemical imbalance. i don't know the science behind it, all i know is that when he gets like this, i shut my mouth and go to my room.

he picked me up from brittany's house, and he came quicker than usual to get me so i didn't have much time to get my stuff together. usually he talks with her parents for about 10min before we leave which is sufficient time for me to put shoes on and get my things. today he didn't do that. he rang the door bell, twice, and said hi, happy fourth, then got into the car and started the engine suggesting i'd have to walk home if i didn't run into the car.

he was pissed at me for not thinking of others and hit my knee cuz i was putting my shoe on which blocked access to the gear shift. i had just finished watching nana, the live action movie based on an anime. in this movie, hachi is a really selfish girl and in the movie she and her friend nana grow as friends and hachi begins to be less and less selfish. when he accused me of not considering others, i immediately thought of the brat hachi was at the begining of the movie. this bothered me, i don't want to be like her. yet, i am. me and otama have an obsession with this movie, and between us, im hachi and she is nana.

as i thought about my actions recently, i came to realize that i am selfish. and i'm not ok with that. in my mind, selfish people contribute nothing constructive to society. all of these things put together made tears come to my eyes. am i really that bad of a person? can i never contribute anything worth while to society? is it even possible to change my selfish ways?

damn it all. i don't even know where to start when it comes to changing my thoughts and actions so that i'm not selfish.

back to the diabetes. so, sometimes, i behave like dad does when he has hypertention. one night, dad's was so bad, i vowed never to treat my children like he does when this damned disease makes him act like someone he isnt. yet, i continue to behave similarly on rare ocasions. why can't i stop it? it seems like nothing starts it... similarly with dad... but i can't stop it either once it's begun. it's so frustrating. i feel like a piece of shit when it happens too, because i'm being such a fucking bitch to the ones i love, but there seems to be nothing i can do about it.

i am still resolved to never show hypertention-like symptoms to my children and express it in negative ways. i will be sure this will happen by being aware of what's happening and know at that time what is occuring. it is unacceptable to continue such unnecessary behavior any longer. also i will learn how to deal with dad's symptoms without resorting to shutting myself out. this requires research. i am determined to follow all of this through.

adieu.

June 21, 2006

mini blog bg

 
*sigh* im tired. I'm feeling rather reserved today. I've been feeling reserved all week. Some call it 'emo' but I call it being moody.

So, while I was enjoying Full Metal Panic! Episode #19, I figured that I should get back into the rhythm of making mini blog bgs, templets, or whatever again. I really enjoy them. It's a chance for me to express myself through images. All of my templets are Naruto screen caps, so it also satisfies my Naruto obsession.

If I seem unenthusiastic, it's because I'm feeling unenthusiastic. There's something that's been bothering me, and I can't seem to pin point what it is, let alone tell someone about it.

I can't seem to figure out what I want to put in this particular blog. Maybe a poem relating to Naruto's predicament regarding the Nine-tailed Fox Demon. I think that's a good idea, there has been a poem forming itself in the back of my mind for a few days now, regarding this particular topic. The more I think about it, the more I realize it's been there for years... It just hasn't manifested itself as a written piece yet.

Well, I'll see if I can get to writting it. Hopefully it will come out soon, I'm starting to get irritated because I think about it so much.
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June 18, 2006

Today the wind is powerfully strong.
Every being can feel it attempting to sway them from their course.
How fortunate they are to have obstacles, such as wind,
challenging them and forcing them to grow.

Today the sea gulls force themselves to fly into the wind.
Most fall back to the sand and simply attempt to walk the distance.
They don't have the strength to face the obstacle in their way.
One courageous gull refuses to touch down and give up.
How beautiful it is for it to continue to fight on,
only advancing an inch at a time,
falling back frequently,
never being swayed into changing route.
This soul possesses that which the poet on the dirty bench
with sand between her toes strives to discipline.

Orange

The Columnist Manifesto
this is zach's blog.

i seriously love this guy... today, we had a date. and i was nervous at first D:... and sweating profusely... v__v it was embarassing... but his hands were shaking so i didnt feel as dorky as i would have had he been calm and composed....


TT__TT he and i... we were being awkward together! i loved it... so much... it was fucking awesome... he pulled off the hot dork better than me though... but it doesnt matter because i dont mind being the dorkier of the two anyway...

i didn't hug him at first... cuz i was so embarassed about being so nervous... i barely said 5 words... and... right when he first arrived at leenas i was acting so 'fake cool' i was even annoying MYSELF! gah... it suxxord... and alexis kept pouring the popcorn we were trying to store on the floor... it wasnt cool...

so... in Elizabeth's car... i called shotgun then a second later i felt really weird about it and wanted to sit in back with him... but then elizabeth put the popcorn maker in my way... how inadvertenly evil... i tried to make conversation with him... but my voice kept being somewhat shaky so i stopped for a period of time... then, for a poor attempt at making up for the lack of hug i passed him my 3 dvds from blockbuster online to show that i wanted to interact with him and only him... i dont know if i got my message accross...

so i finally was able to relax once we were on our way down shoreline. it took a long time to walk all the way to washington, but it was really nice because the wind was keeping me from sweating too much.... right around when we were in the neighborhood of paru st. i took his hand. man, that was really tight...

when we got to upper washington park, after i showed him around and all of that such and so on, we found ourselves under a tall tree looking at the pictures and contacts on his phone. i thoroughly enjoyed looking at all of his friends. since the tree was so uncomfortable for him to lean against [i felt bad that he was in pain but he didn't complain! wat a trooper...TT__TT] we decided to move locations, but instead of sitting at the base of the new tree, we played the 'look who's taller now!' game. we hugged for a preiod of time. and during this time i realized that he smelled so good! i kept smelling him all over and he was laughing cuz it tickled... :3


he bought me water and a oatmeal raisin cookie at starbucks... i love those cookies. and i especially love that he offered to buy it for me. people don't realize how much simple gestures like that are appreciated.


after i ate my cookie and we both drank our drinks we went to throw away our trash and wait by the bus stop. as we were approaching the stop, right out side starbuck's door, i turned around suddenly, realizing i still had trash, i had a rather distressed look on my face and as zach and i collided, he gave me a hug. [i love hugs. especially warm and loving ones...] when he embraced me, i felt calmed from my freaking out about forgeting to toss a wrapper... the best part of the wrapper insident is that he took it and tossed it FOR ME! so thoughtful... so sweet


when he got on the 50, a few minutes after leaving starbucks, i watched him ride away from me. inside, i was cursing the rediculously small rear window and the surplus of heads in the way of my eyes and his cute asian face. it was not cool. but i certainly felt cool because he and i, we were orange, and we were orange together.



Zach's side of the story...

March 14, 2006

RAW:World Apart

I sift through my chaotic mind
to find that peace,
that moment of mental silence.
The silence breaks as his voice sings,
sings those words of confusion and heartache.
I feel his confusion,
his headache,
the music plays on...
a tear forms on the edge of my heart.
This moment of silence,
I'm left whole,
repaired,
composed.
He saves my soul and prepares my mind,
prepares it for the rest of the day.
The song ends.
The music plays on in my head.
plays on in my heart...

February 17, 2006

World Apart

teh lyrics
Sekai no hatekara machi e tobu
Kagirinai jidai no idea

Sunaarashi no yoru ni kasokushite
kitzuitara koku wa dokoka

sokuseki no uta de mai odoru
jittai no nai mirai to ai nowa
bokutachi no hibi no sasayakana
negai sura yume no you dayo

boku no ryoute ni wa kore dakedayo
kokoro no naka ni kakumei wo

tooku mukou de
biru ni munashisa ga sasatte
rokuzyou no apa-to no
genjitsu wa mahishita

me wo fusaite
boku wa kimi wo omoi egaite
sozo no sekai de
kimi mo zenbu nakushite
wakatteyo

boku no ryoute ni wa kore dakedayo
kimi no ryoute ni wa sore dakedaro
mabuta no oku ni ukabu image de
kokoro no naka ni kakumei wo

tooku mukou de
biru ni munashisa ga sasatte
rokuzyou no apa-to no
genjitsu wa mahishita

me wo fusaite
boku wa kimi wo omoi egaite
sozo no sekai de
kimi mo zenbu nakushite
wakatteyo

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i'm sure you're just itching to know what all that means!! XP
Ok, here's the translations...

I flew from the town to the end of the world,
The endless era of ideas

I went much further with an evening sandstorm rising
And lost my direction when I came around.

Dancing with the instant song
There are no truths to the future love's
My everday modest wishes
It is my dream world

It is only this in both of my hands
Inside my heart, the revolution is breaking out.

Stuck to that purposeless
far away, distant, empty building
In the space of a six-mat room apartment
the reality is numbed

My eyes closed
I chase after you, struggling
The world of imagination
You also vanished altogether. I understand (you know)

It is only this in both of my hands
There is so much in both of your hands
In the images that float behind my eyelids
Inside my heart, the revolution is breaking out.

Stuck to that purposeless,
far away, distant, empty building
In the space of a six-mat room apartment
the reality is numbed

My eyes closed
I chase after you, struggling.
The world of imagination
You also vanished altogether. I understand (you know).


Enjoy!