Olvidar mis errores del pasado y obtener logros en el futuro.
I used to think of experiences from days and years before as a summation of who I am and was at that point in time, that is true as a gage of who I have been but is not applicable to who I am today or who I will be.
I know instinctively that I can be better than what or who I was before, especially when it comes to the pain I inflicted on myself and the loved ones around me.
Its terribly difficult for me to forget. I can sometimes see the effects of my damage in the present and wish from the bottom of my heart that I can take it back or make up for it, in any way that would alleviate the pain I see. This guilt is most prevalent when I am presented with a tiny object or idea that is tied to a specific loved one or more directly, mentally tied to some negative action.
Apologies alone will never be enough but the future self that has yet been formed is the only mode of redemption. Never again will I fall victim to the whims of my fleeting impulses or allow myself to be dragged down and defeated by trivial environmental elements. If my past has done anything positive for me, its purpose has been to strengthen through survival; while never losing sights of my dreams.
When I'm presented with a chance to step forward, tangibly move toward a fuller self, or fall back into regret, I hope my guilt will ignite the courage I need to change rather than excuse my subsequent tail spin. Until then, I am continually fighting to choose the nobler path. Only time can really tell if I'm anywhere near successful.
