This quarter's school newspaper, Jet Blast, was released today. It had six pages of articles and artwork. The artwork was all holiday themed! Julian submitted one, it was very pretty. She said she made it on the computer, as in used the mouse as a pencil and drew every last line with the mouse. [that's crazy hard...] Julian's added some blends that made it look all the more better, ^___^ she's good at presentation.
The articles, Ian wrote an article about the problem of homophobia in our school, which is a little difficult to believe that a school as diverse as ours has a problem like that. He made some valid points but I couldn't focus on his argument because there were many structural problems. :/ He's only a junior, so I can't blame him. All the underclassmen articles I read had quite a few grammatical errors, not that my own grammar skills are perfect. The editor has to proof read all the articles and make sure that articles have as few errors as possible, and the teacher in charge of it should do it too, to check. But Mr. Smith, an arithmetic teacher, is the teacher for the newspaper, :/ we find a lot of errors on our statistics homework sheets...
Leland, the editor-in-chief called for students to write articles, so I've decided to write something, probably multiple things--anime review, anime movie review, and a non-anime article. I was thinking about writing my non-anime article about blogging, but what would be the purpose of it? Just talking about blogging? To me, that seems pretty redundant. :/
Maybe I'll write my anime review about Ouran High School Host Club. It's a very interesting anime, I'm sure it'll be entertaining. I've been wanting to write a review for that anime, ^__^ it's one of my favorite anime! :D I hope it comes out nicely and people will be introduced to something new and it'll open up possibilities in their lives.
Playing on Sirius' Alt Nation | 21: Switchfoot - Oh! Gravity
aren't they a religious group? :/
December 15, 2006
December 14, 2006
blogger makeover
I redid my blog, as you can see. It's no longer "depths of ichuu" which means the depths of the mind. nope, it's "angou no waltz" the coded waltz! It's an ASIAN KUNG-FU GENERATION song. Also, I redid the color scheme, changed the layout, and the way things are presented, i.e. dates, times, etc.
I have 2minutes before my Anime Club officers show up for our meeting to discuss things. I'll make this really super brief. I am looking for a new name. Right now, I go by Midori. Even though I don't like the name... >___< I kind of want to go back to Kimiko. It's cute, Midori isn't. [sorry Midori-chan :/]
James, James and Julian'll both be here in a few seconds... >_< there they ARE!!! OH NOES! Need to start reviewing the agenda, I'll post more later.... [doubt that though..]
playing on iPod: dark blue - jack's mannekin
I have 2minutes before my Anime Club officers show up for our meeting to discuss things. I'll make this really super brief. I am looking for a new name. Right now, I go by Midori. Even though I don't like the name... >___< I kind of want to go back to Kimiko. It's cute, Midori isn't. [sorry Midori-chan :/]
James, James and Julian'll both be here in a few seconds... >_< there they ARE!!! OH NOES! Need to start reviewing the agenda, I'll post more later.... [doubt that though..]
playing on iPod: dark blue - jack's mannekin
July 04, 2006
hypertention
being the offspring of a diabetic, it isn't unheard of that i show symptoms similar to those of diabetes, but not actually have the disease...
today, dad had really hypertention. which means he's just really irritable, but not due to an outside of his body source, no, he's irritable because his body has some kind of chemical imbalance. i don't know the science behind it, all i know is that when he gets like this, i shut my mouth and go to my room.
he picked me up from brittany's house, and he came quicker than usual to get me so i didn't have much time to get my stuff together. usually he talks with her parents for about 10min before we leave which is sufficient time for me to put shoes on and get my things. today he didn't do that. he rang the door bell, twice, and said hi, happy fourth, then got into the car and started the engine suggesting i'd have to walk home if i didn't run into the car.
he was pissed at me for not thinking of others and hit my knee cuz i was putting my shoe on which blocked access to the gear shift. i had just finished watching nana, the live action movie based on an anime. in this movie, hachi is a really selfish girl and in the movie she and her friend nana grow as friends and hachi begins to be less and less selfish. when he accused me of not considering others, i immediately thought of the brat hachi was at the begining of the movie. this bothered me, i don't want to be like her. yet, i am. me and otama have an obsession with this movie, and between us, im hachi and she is nana.
as i thought about my actions recently, i came to realize that i am selfish. and i'm not ok with that. in my mind, selfish people contribute nothing constructive to society. all of these things put together made tears come to my eyes. am i really that bad of a person? can i never contribute anything worth while to society? is it even possible to change my selfish ways?
damn it all. i don't even know where to start when it comes to changing my thoughts and actions so that i'm not selfish.
back to the diabetes. so, sometimes, i behave like dad does when he has hypertention. one night, dad's was so bad, i vowed never to treat my children like he does when this damned disease makes him act like someone he isnt. yet, i continue to behave similarly on rare ocasions. why can't i stop it? it seems like nothing starts it... similarly with dad... but i can't stop it either once it's begun. it's so frustrating. i feel like a piece of shit when it happens too, because i'm being such a fucking bitch to the ones i love, but there seems to be nothing i can do about it.
i am still resolved to never show hypertention-like symptoms to my children and express it in negative ways. i will be sure this will happen by being aware of what's happening and know at that time what is occuring. it is unacceptable to continue such unnecessary behavior any longer. also i will learn how to deal with dad's symptoms without resorting to shutting myself out. this requires research. i am determined to follow all of this through.
adieu.
today, dad had really hypertention. which means he's just really irritable, but not due to an outside of his body source, no, he's irritable because his body has some kind of chemical imbalance. i don't know the science behind it, all i know is that when he gets like this, i shut my mouth and go to my room.
he picked me up from brittany's house, and he came quicker than usual to get me so i didn't have much time to get my stuff together. usually he talks with her parents for about 10min before we leave which is sufficient time for me to put shoes on and get my things. today he didn't do that. he rang the door bell, twice, and said hi, happy fourth, then got into the car and started the engine suggesting i'd have to walk home if i didn't run into the car.
he was pissed at me for not thinking of others and hit my knee cuz i was putting my shoe on which blocked access to the gear shift. i had just finished watching nana, the live action movie based on an anime. in this movie, hachi is a really selfish girl and in the movie she and her friend nana grow as friends and hachi begins to be less and less selfish. when he accused me of not considering others, i immediately thought of the brat hachi was at the begining of the movie. this bothered me, i don't want to be like her. yet, i am. me and otama have an obsession with this movie, and between us, im hachi and she is nana.
as i thought about my actions recently, i came to realize that i am selfish. and i'm not ok with that. in my mind, selfish people contribute nothing constructive to society. all of these things put together made tears come to my eyes. am i really that bad of a person? can i never contribute anything worth while to society? is it even possible to change my selfish ways?
damn it all. i don't even know where to start when it comes to changing my thoughts and actions so that i'm not selfish.
back to the diabetes. so, sometimes, i behave like dad does when he has hypertention. one night, dad's was so bad, i vowed never to treat my children like he does when this damned disease makes him act like someone he isnt. yet, i continue to behave similarly on rare ocasions. why can't i stop it? it seems like nothing starts it... similarly with dad... but i can't stop it either once it's begun. it's so frustrating. i feel like a piece of shit when it happens too, because i'm being such a fucking bitch to the ones i love, but there seems to be nothing i can do about it.
i am still resolved to never show hypertention-like symptoms to my children and express it in negative ways. i will be sure this will happen by being aware of what's happening and know at that time what is occuring. it is unacceptable to continue such unnecessary behavior any longer. also i will learn how to deal with dad's symptoms without resorting to shutting myself out. this requires research. i am determined to follow all of this through.
adieu.
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